Monday, November 12, 2012

Hello friends! It has been a while

Hello!! Anyone around?
I did it! I officially become one of those bloggers who disappear off the face of the earth and into oblivion.  While I have a plethora of excuses I could throw at you, it came down to two things.
1.       I need to focus on my family and get us away from the brink of disaster.
2.       I needed to find myself
While both 1 & 2 are still a ‘work in progress’  I feel I am ready to pick up where I left off.
I had been eyeing the scale for weeks.  Occasionally making flirty eyes and wooing myself back into its good graces.  Saturday night I finally slide on my big girl panties and decided to take the plunge and see where 2.5 months of craziness has left me.
DRUM ROLL PLEASE *********** 198.00**************
I was so relieved I started to cry.  I truly had changed the way I ate and while I hadn’t lost anything I had not gained a single pound. PHEW!!
So the question is, how does one reboot themselves? Well I guess the first thing was to find out what happened the first time around.
When I started this journey I feel like I had two set of goals. The ones I shared and the shallow ones that I kept to myself.   The one’s I shared were still important to me. I DO want to set a good example for my kids and I want to be healthy but sometimes you have to tap into you selfishness and narcissism to get your butt moving.  
How did I come to this conclusion? Well I started looking at what had changed when my motivation slipped and I realized that I had technically met all my superficial markers.  I could shop at most of the hip stores I always dreamed of,  I had days where I felt sexy and people stopped looking at me as the ‘fat person’ and more like a ‘potentially hot person’.  I still was not where I wanted to be on the scale and I still had days when I looked in the mirror going “I look the same I did 60 pounds ago.” But enough of those needs had been meet that the drive was dissipating.
So I decided to hit the reset button.  Start the new weight loss journey where I am now and not where I was 60 pounds ago.  I need to embrace the socially appropriate and superficial goals so that when I accomplish them I can make new ones.  I need to remember my old reasons and make some new reasons to continue on this journey
Goals you can’t track:
-           I want to set a good example for my kids (I really do!!)
-          I want to feel sexy and hot
-          I want to be able to wear a swimsuit in public
-          I want to be able to shop anywhere (while I can hit up most clothing stores,  some places still size a little too small for me)
-          I want to get rid of my gut!!

Large Goals you can track:
-          Official weight loss goal: 140 pounds ( - 58 to go )
-          Want to no longer be ‘obese’: 179 pounds ( - 19 to go)
-          Would like to slip into a size 6 ( - 4 sizes to go)

Those are some of the larger goals I am aiming for, but I know I do better when I have mini goals to pump me up along the way…so here is WEEK 1 Official weight posting!!

Current weight: 198.0 pounds

Starting weight: 198 pounds
Down: 0 pounds
Total loss: 0 pounds
Goal weight: 140 pounds
Total to lose: 58 pounds


Break the 198 plateau:  -1 pounds to go
We love the 80’s: -8.1 pounds to go
5% Body Weight Gone:  -9.9 pounds to go
Overweight BMI (179): -19 pounds to go
Scuba Diving Lessons (170) – 28 pounds
Let’s get this party started!!

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